Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Friday, April 8, 2011

Day 98 - Lesson 97

I am spirit.

Opening up to spirit, to recognizing my spirit, is an ongoing adventure.  Sometimes I wonder if I'm not obsessed with it?  But then I read something like this:

"Your soul and my soul
Once sat together in the Beloved's womb
Playing footsie.
Your soul and my soul
Are very, very old
Friends."
~ Hafiz

And I think to myself all the many times throughout my life, things have suddenly gone right when they could have been disastrous, when I've come upon a stranger who feels like someone I've known forever, when I enter a room and am able to know the mood without hearing anyone speak.  These, for me, are clear and convincing indications of how active our souls, our spirits, are - we only need pay attention.

I much prefer asking myself the soul questions - over and over throughout the day, silently in my head, to being on autopilot and wondering why I'm unhappy.  I am so much happier now.  Even when things don't go particularly well, I have a calm peacefulness deep within me that had been overlooked, buried, and neglected.

I guess if I'm obsessed....so be it.
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