Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Monday, April 25, 2011

Day 115 - Lesson 114

Review -

97 - I am spirit.
98 - I will accept my part in God's plan for salvation.

Deepak Chopra talks a lot about how we all operate in the awareness of whatever level of consciousness we happen to be on. He talks about the seven types of biological responses - and how the majority of us are at the Fight or Flight Response level.  

I heard something today that really hurt my heart.  I immediately felt like lashing out.  I didn't.  Then I felt like withdrawing.  I didn't.  Instead, for the next few hours I reflected on having observed my reactions.  I reminded myself, over and over again, that I was making a choice about feeling hurt.  I reminded myself that nothing is resolved where love is not present.  I chose to replace the hurt in my heart with feelings of love.  While, initially, this may seem difficult - and it did take me a few hours to get to this level of active awareness - as it turns out, it's really not that hard.

"I wish I could show you when you are lonely or in darkness the astonishing light of your own being." ~ Hafiz
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