Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Day 116 - Lesson 115

Review -

99 - Salvation is my only function here.
100 - My part is essential to God's plan for salvation.

I received a very difficult phone call in the middle of the night last night.  From about 12:30 am to 6:30 am, I slept in fits and starts - maybe two hours at a stretch.  I really struggled with getting back to sleep after the phone call.  I prayed, and chanted a peace mantra, and I prayed, and I chanted the peace mantra.  I tried so hard to remember the sleep mantra but it was elusive and I was too tired to get up and look it up.  When I finally got up this morning, groggy, I reviewed this lesson and felt a renewed sense of energy.  My morning meditation also gave me a much needed sense of purpose.  I was comforted by love, by source, by God.  I was reminded that I have no control over the situation involving the difficult phone call.  I was reminded to spread as much love as possible.  I was reminded that hope - sending thoughts of love and hope out into the universe really do provide healing.  I was reminded that, whether I am comfortable with it or not, the universe in each moment is exactly as it is meant to be. 

I am not in the universe, the universe is in me.
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