Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Day 109 - Lesson 108

To give and to receive are one in truth.

This lesson starts out by saying: Vision depends upon today's idea.  The light is in it, for it reconciles all seeming opposites.  And what is light except the resolution, born of peace, of all your conflicts and mistaken thoughts into one concept which is wholly true?  Even that one will disappear, because the Thought behind it will appear instead to take its place.  And now you are at peace forever, for the dream is over then.

I went for a long walk along the beach and then along a hillside path above the beach.  I listened to water lap and occasionally crash upon the shore.  I listened to bird calls of all sorts.  I inhaled the salty cool air.  I closed my eyes and welcomed the warmth of the sun upon my skin.  I sat on an outcropping of tundra and rock and gazed upon the waters, as far as I could see, and then I sank into the scene.  I meditated silently and then I listened as davidji guided me into a meditation that brought this very lesson home inside my heart and into my soul.

The restlessness is not gone, but I was reminded to relax into it - to stop judging it.  The pressure in my third-eye remains, but I am welcoming it, embracing it.  This gift I gave to me and I received it graciously. 

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