Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Day 118 - Lesson 117

Review -

103 - God, being Love, is also happiness.
104 - I seek but what belongs to me in truth.

I felt such an incredible sense of peace today.  I had a controversial proposal to present to a work group today.  In the past, I would have agonized over it.  I would have dug my heels deep into my position.  I would have felt compelled to aggressively convince everyone that this proposal was the only way to go....and, basically, anyone not agreement just wouldn't be very smart.  It felt so good to release all of that baggage (all of that ego).  I had done my homework, put together a simple presentation, laid out my ideas and the facts as I saw them - and then I sat back and really listened to the feedback.  I received overwhelming support for my idea and I think that, in part, can be attributed to the fact that I simply let go of my need to defend my position.  I truly felt fine about whatever the outcome was going to be - knowing that if the decision was not to support the idea I presented it would have been for good reason.  

This is just a minor, and yet powerful, example of how much easier life is when I let source be my guide - when I 'let go and let God.'  I used to think that was just a ridiculous saying - now I see that I didn't understand it at all.  When my intentions are good, when I am well prepared, when I give up my need to feel like I must control everything - when I detach (because I can't predict the future), when I trust in the rightness of the universe, I am able to appreciate all possibilities and every miracle I encounter.  I am able to actually see the miracles.

Life is such a beautiful thing - I love paying attention!
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