Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Day 103 - Lesson 102

I share God's Will for happiness for me.

This lesson starts about by saying: You do not want to suffer.  You may think it buys you something, and may still believe a little that it buys you what you want.

I must admit - it's true.  Even though there is great joy in my heart, I sometimes worry a little bit about deserving it.  You know the "why should I be this happy when so many others are suffering...."  However, I'm starting to see more clearly that:

Who am I?  I am a divine being.
What do I want?  I want to know God.
What is my purpose in life? To be happy.

When the 'grand scheme of things' is distilled in my heart, in my mind, this is what it comes down to.  Therefore, I am going to do all I can to shine my light of love with the hope it will encourage someone else to be happy, too.  I am going to keep asking these soul questions and listening to what God tells me.
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