Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Day 97 - Lesson 96

Salvation comes from my one Self.

This lesson addresses how we experience ourselves as two; as both good and evil, loving and hating, mind and body.  I understand and agree with this statement.  However, the lesson goes on to say that the mind and body cannot both exist and that we should not attempt to reconcile this - if you are physical, your mind is gone from your self-concept, for it has no place in which it could be really part of you.  If you are spirit, then the body must be meaningless to your reality.  There is a fair amount of confusion in this lesson for me.  I am beginning to grasp the idea that my body is an illusion, that there is no solid mass of anything, that the universe is twinkling on and off - but it isn't easy.  Developing awareness and understanding of the physical, to the subtle, to the causal is a bit challenging for me.  Though I am actively studying it.  I am curious and interested.

With that....more deep thought, study, and contemplation is required.  My brain is tired after this long and fruitful day.  While I'd like to be in a place of greater knowledge and awareness - I am going to choose to appreciate that I am in exactly the place of understanding and awareness that I am meant to be in.
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