Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Day 8 - Lesson 8

Lesson 8 is mysterious and irritating.  The general concept is my mind is preoccupied with past thoughts and the exercises emphasize that point.  This lesson talks about how preoccupied with the past we are when our minds are actually blank - the past is not there it is an illusion.

Right now, my mind wants to focus on how truly therapeutic it is to laugh.  I have the great fortune of meeting once per month with 11 other women.  It's a group of regulars, but we almost always have a sub or two join us because of travel schedules and work obligations. The group is made up of friends who spend more time together, but as a whole we only get together once per month.  These monthly sessions are centered around a silly game, the hostess of the month serves snacks (sometimes an entire meal) and dessert, and there are six winners at the end of each gathering.  The real prize, however, is in the laughter.  I typically leave these sessions with aching cheeks and a sore belly from laughing so hard.  The other great thing is there isn't a woman in the bunch that isn't a great hugger!

I am thankful indeed.
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