Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Day 15 - Lesson 15

My thoughts are images that I have made.  I dealt with a situation today that made me so very aware of this statement.  It was a situation that could have easily turned into an angry and ugly back and forth blame you, blame me.  However, I was conscious of this negative potential as I entered the situation and I was determined that it would be resolved with loving-compassion - no matter what!  Last year at this time, I would have marched into that situation with my guns blazing.  I would have proved I was right (in my own mind), I would have defended my position (without asking or really caring about any other perspective), and I would have reaffirmed, yet again, how messed up the whole situation was anyway.  It would have been so important to me to "be right!" 

I am thankful that I have learned some better strategies for resolving these types of situations; and when I remember to use those strategies I always come out of it thinking, "Wow, that went really well - way better than I thought it was going to go!"  It's less important to me now to "be right" than it is to make sure that I've really listened, that I show the others involved that I truly care about them and their well-being - that we can get through whatever it is and it's not going to be the end of the world if some mistakes were made.  Not that we shouldn't strive for excellence, but that our lives are dynamic and we simply can't always accurately predict how things are going to turn out....even with the best of planning, even when we think we've thought through all the 'what ifs' and even when we think we've developed all the necessary tools.

I'm thankful I made it through this day in a way that was a bit kinder to those around me (I'm sure the others are, too).
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