Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Friday, January 14, 2011

Day 14 - Lesson 14

God did not create a meaningless world. This is the topic of Lesson 14.  I'm struggling a bit with figuring out the amount of information from each lesson to share.  I think it's important to recognize that I don't want to influence someone else's potential experience in practicing the lessons in this course.  Plus, too little information could give a terrible false impression.  For now, I'll continue as I've been and hope that the story unfolds as it's meant to.....I'll trust each day that I'm writing what I'm meant to be writing. 

This lesson had me repeat lots of things that God did not create - God did not create war, cancer, violence.  God did not create a specific event - like an airplane crash or an epidemic.  The lesson goes on to say since God did not create it it is not real.  That's the tricky part.  Sure, it's easy to believe - to know that God did not create the bad things that happen.  However, it sure does feel real, as in, "I watched it, I heard it, I experienced it, I felt it...."  I know for sure this is going somewhere important.  I know that it's about realizing what is meaningful.  This lesson is a difficult one - and they recognize that.
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