Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Day 16 - Lesson 16

Lesson 16 begins with: I have no neutral thoughts and one of the statements within this lesson is: Every thought you have contributes to truth or to illusion; either it extends truth or it multiplies illusions.

I have been thinking, for about the past year, very seriously about how what I think affects my entire life.  Today, due to this lesson, I was especially observant of my thoughts.  At least two times today I encountered situations in which I caught myself in negative patterns of thinking. Both times I had the opportunity to stop and readjust from negative to positive.  Both times the outcomes were not just better, but surprisingly better.  

I don't know if had I continued my pattern of negative thoughts if the outcomes would have been different, or if I would have appreciated the outcomes as much as I did had they been the same, or if I would have paid enough attention to appreciate them.  It's possible that I would have put a cynical spin on them or made some diminishing comment about how that probably wouldn't ever happen again. 

I am thankful that I was more positive, that the outcomes were positive, that I paid attention, and that I appreciate, not just the outcomes, but the people involved in a way that I haven't appreciated them in the past.

Today, I chose to contribute to truth.
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