Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Day 6 - Lesson 6

This will come as no surprise, Lesson 6 is an extension of the previous lessons.  It, however, asks that the focus be on searching your mind to upsetting thoughts and then to very specifically name the form of upset (worry, fear, anger) and the perceived source.

As I practiced this today, the over-arching thought that kept occurring is when I am in the present moment - thoughts of worry, fear, frustration, anger, depression don't last long.  These exercises, even though they seem sort of simple and I've asked myself, "Geez, why do I need to practice this?"  I am struck by how beneficial they are in helping me to spend more time in the present moment.  I can pretty easily hang out in daydream world and let my mind wander all over - the problem is, when I do that, my mind wanders more into the, "Holy crap I need to add to my to do list; oh, man, I forgot all about....; why did so and so say that, do that, not do that" instead of hanging out on a sunny beach somewhere enjoying a good lounge.  When I stay in present moment awareness, I do enjoy life more....I appreciate my world more.  I don't worry as much about things that I don't have any control over.
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