Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Day 142 - Lesson 141

Today begins another review.  Each day of the review begins with: My mind holds only what I think with God. And is then followed by two recent lessons.

121 - Forgiveness is the key to happiness.
122 - Forgiveness offers everything I want.

I have been dealing with a bit of restlessness again.  I'm not sure if it's the weather, impending work and study, or just what.  I know I have been denying some worry - pushing it away - about my studies for Perfect Health.  I can be really good at sabotaging my own success.  Those old feelings of, "You're not smart enough, you're not good enough, you are not sophisticated, you lack formal education." bubble up inside of me. 

This review, these lessons, and especially the starting mantra will be really helpful to me in focusing on these thoughts and releasing those old ones.

More meditation, more prayer, more forgiveness, and more love....
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