Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Day 137 - Lesson 136

Sickness is a defense against the truth.

I still find myself occasionally preparing to write about a lesson and thinking, "How am I going to describe the meaning of the lesson for me in a way that won't offend others or illicit an argument?"  I start thinking about all of the ways that what I write could result in negative feedback, or misunderstandings, or lack of approval.  This is one of those lessons.  Part of this occasional struggle occurs more often when I'm tired than when I'm full of energy.

I hosted the Goddess Gathering tonight and what a tremendous blessing and honor!  My little place, nine dynamic women, snacks, gifts, stories, inspirations, motivations, laughter, song, hugs, smiles!  I am thankful beyond words to be a regular participant of this full moon celebration.  It is all-inclusive, supportive, encouraging, and thought-provoking.  I couldn't have been happier with the Goddess card I received tonight - Eireen (Peace), "There is no need to worry, as everything is working out beautifully."  I also received a Louise Hay inspirational card tonight that says this: "I release all fears and doubts.  I now choose to free myself from all destructive fears and doubts.  I accept myself and create peace in my mind and heart.  I am loved and I am safe."

So, check, check, check, and check some more.  I choose health and wellness, I choose acceptance, I choose miracles, I choose love.
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