Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Day 125 - Lesson 124

Let me remember I am one with God.

I especially love this part of this lesson: Our shining footprints point the way to truth, for God is our Companion as we walk the world a little while.  And those who come to follow us will recognize the way because the light we carry stays behind, yet still remains with us as we walk on.

That creates such a beautiful visual.  I find that one of the greatest benefits of this journey is that I don't take things as personally anymore and I have a great deal more trust that things will always work out for the best - as they are meant to work out.  I can't describe how surprising and comforting this is.  A couple of times this week I had people apologize to me for things they were afraid I might have been offended by.  Each time I was really taken off guard because I hadn't been offended by anything.  It was never all that easy to offend me, but I would get irritated and take things personally as if I was somehow superior, or whatever had happened was somehow directed towards me - at me.  I see now that the way other people behave has nothing to do with me.  Like Wayne Dyer says, "How people treat me is their karma, how I react is mine."

Living this stuff every day, asking every single day to be an instrument of love, taking the steps, and being mindful has created the most peaceful existence I have ever had, and, in fact, struggled to imagine at one time. 

Yes, please let me remember I am one with God.
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