Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Day 130 - Lesson 129

Beyond this world there is a world I want.

After having reflected upon yesterday's lesson and observing myself get all caught up in it and second-guessing my progress....this lesson, of course, supplies the hope that felt missing yesterday.  When I relax into lessons instead of forcing solutions and outcomes - things fall into place as they will, as they are meant to, and the right time frame. 

This part: Our emphasis is not on giving up the world, but on exchanging it for what is far more satisfying, filled with joy, and capable of offering you peace.

This is all about recognizing that this material world, full of competition and one-upmanship, and material wants and desires, is obviously available for the taking - and it's what so many of us have been socialized to accept.  We accept it to the point of living on auto-pilot without even giving much thought beyond our next day at work, our next purchase, our next vacation (or lack thereof).  Until, at least for me, something kept tapping me on the shoulder and whispering in my ear, "Is this all there is in life?  What is my purpose?  Why am I here?"  And now, I can't get enough of that.

All you need is love.  With God all things are possible.  Stop trying so hard.  I used to be one of those people that would snicker at these statements.  My heart woke me up and I want to live a life that exemplifies to the greatest possible extent these things....I want to love more, I want to know God, and I want to be happy.
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