Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Day 123 - Lesson 122

Forgiveness offers everything I want.

The mantra that was repeated with this lesson:

Forgiveness offers everything I want.
Today I have accepted this as true.
Today I have received the gifts of God.

This was helpful for me in a challenging situation today. A decision needs to be made.  A decision that requires a recommendation from me.  Even after prayer, meditation, and asking myself over and over again, "What would Love do?" I still don't have a very good recommendation.  I had been beating myself up over this.  I gave in today.  I turned it over to Source.  I forgave myself.  I see now that the situation will resolve as it's meant to and I've done all I can do. 

Getting to forgiveness isn't always easy - sometimes I make things more complicated than they need to be - but once I get there it feels right.
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