Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Day 72 - Lesson 71

Only God's plan for salvation will work.  I am super thankful that today is Sunday.  This was exactly the lesson I needed today.  I had several hours to meditate and contemplate and pray today.

This lesson included spending time in silent meditation asking:
What would You have me do?
Where would You have me go?
What would You have me say, and to whom?
Asking these questions, over and over again, reminded me that faith in love and welcoming uncertainty opens all that's possible.  Deepak Chopra talks about asking the questions with the realization that the answer will come when we are ready to see it - ready to understand it.  I find myself being impatient with wanting the answers to these questions.  However, when I remember to be present in this moment, this very moment that is my life, I am content with the knowledge that the answers will come when I am meant to have them.
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