Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Day 61 - Lesson 60

Lesson 60 was a review of lessons 46 through 50.  The themes of the lessons included: God is the love in which I forgive, God is the strength in which I trust, There is nothing to fear, God's voice speaks to me all through the day, and I am sustained by the Love of God.  I went back and reflected on each of my posts and how these lessons touched my heart, touched my daily experiences, and touched my expressions and reactions.

Last June, while attending the Chopra Center's Perfect Health program, I found this great v-necked t-shirt.  It's a dusky blue with a greenish-goldish vine/tree with pink flowers.  It's really soft cotton and says, on the front, Love this Life....  This, of course, is what drew me to the shirt.  However, this poem by David Culiner, that's on the back of the shirt, is what made me buy it:

LovethisLife...
is about celebrating the moment and that
we're not guaranteed or owed another day
and how cool it is that what we hide
can actually be the fuel towards our glory
and that it's not so bad being proven wrong
LovethisLife...
is about welcoming the blind turn
and the possibility that
there's no such thing as coincidence
and that empathy is incredibly sexy
and that it's never too late to
pick up a guitar or a paintbrush
or to make an amend or to make a new friend
LovethisLife...
could be about rekindling a past flame
or igniting a new one
or shapeshifting from a dreamer into a doer
or savouring the caress of a love long gone
LovethisLife...
means whatever it is you want it to mean because
LovethisLife...
is a celebration of you and your path
LovethisLife...
'cuz it could go at any second
you rock.

This poem represents my life in so many ways.  I do love this life.  I am spending a good deal of time each day relishing in how much I love this life.  I am making an effort and a choice to stop allowing ego and drama to play dominant roles in my life.  I am loving more and fearing less.
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