Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Day 197 - Lesson 196

It can be but myself I crucify.

This lesson starts out by saying:

When this is firmly understood and kept in full awareness, you will not attempt to harm yourself, nor make your body slave to vengeance.  You will not attack yourself, and you will realize that to attack another is but to attack yourself.  You will be free of the insane belief that to attack a brother saves yourself.  And you will understand his safety is your own, and in his healing you are healed.

My day did not go as I had planned.  My planned agenda included my usual Saturday breakfast, some study, some work, and then starting my tests for Perfect Health.  I have but a limited amount of time to get them completed, so I decided to get them done today and tomorrow.  As it turns out someone needed me today and, while I went to breakfast, nothing else on my agenda was accomplished.

The person who needed me didn't necessarily need me for anything other than the comfort of my presence.  I am thankful to have been able to give her that.  Her situation is one in which we could have attacked another person in her life - that could have easily been the focus of our day.  Instead we focused on love, and conscious decision-making, and embracing uncertainty.

I have a good friend whose famous line is, "You can get on with life with a smile on your face, or you can be a long time mad - you choose."  So, even though things didn't turn out the way I expected today, and they didn't turn out for the person who needed me, I do believe that our lives are unfolding exactly the way the universe intended today.
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