Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Monday, July 4, 2011

Day 185 - Lesson 184

The Name of God is my inheritance.

This lesson says, "God has no name.  And yet His Name becomes the final lesson that all things are one, and at this lesson does all learning end.  All names are unified; all space is filled with truth's reflection.  Every gap is closed, and separation healed."  Of course, it says a whole lot more too - but this part is especially powerful to me.

When we walk around believing we are separate from everyone and everything, when we buy into the individualism stuff, when we get caught up in worry, in working harder to try to get ahead, in competing with everything and everyone else, we forget the beauty and the truth of our oneness.  We forget that deep within us our soul is there for guidance and for comfort.  We attempt to force solutions and those 'solutions' then don't really accomplish what we thought they would.

If I have learned anything over this past year, it really is to stop making things so complicated.  To just allow things to be as they are without expectation.  Once I figured out that no, everything isn't about me - people aren't out to make me feel bad, look bad, be bad.  People are mostly caught up in their very own business and do things of their own perception - usually I'm not much part of their own thinking and doing processes.  I am learning to let people be themselves and to stop taking things so personally.  I'm learning to love more and judge less.

I like things simple so much better.  Be here now - this moment, this very moment is my life and I want it to be, as often as possible, a celebration.

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