Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Day 194 - Lesson 193

All things are lessons God would have me learn.

This lesson continues to deal with forgiveness and how forgiveness is the one thing that truly liberates us.  It says:

Forgive, and you will see this differently.

These are the words the Holy Spirit speaks in all your tribulations, all your pain, all your suffering regardless of its form.  These are the words with which temptation ends, and guilt, abandoned, is revered no more.  These are the words which end the dream of sin, and rid the mind of fear.  These are the words by which salvation comes to all the world.

Of course, it says so much more than this too.  It encouraged reflection at least once per hour all day.  It encouraged that when something caused apprehension, suffering, or anger that I reflect on it through forgiveness - it encouraged in that reflection to say to myself: I will forgive, and this will disappear.  When I am mindful and take these steps, it does happen - the weight of it all decreases tremendously.

This lesson is also all about choices - I can make the choice to be negative or positive, to see a grievance or see a miracle, to feel fear or to feel love.  I take responsibility for my emotions, my reactions, my responses, and for where I am in this moment based on the decisions I have made. 
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