Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Day 195 - Lesson 194

I place the future in the Hands of God.

Release the future.  For the past is gone, and what is present, freed from its bequest of grief and misery, of pain and loss, becomes the instant in which time escapes the bondage of illusions where it runs its pitiless, inevitable course.

There really is something liberating about releasing the future.  I recognize more and more that when I set my intentions, envision myself as already doing, being, creating, fulfilling those intentions, and then release that vision to the universe I am free to experience exactly what I am intended, what I am meant to experience.  There is no sense of loss or worry that things won't work out - because of course they do work out.  I cannot predict the future.

Today, during my walk, in the drizzly rain, I saw myself graduating from the Perfect Health Teacher Training Program.  I saw myself crying with joy and gratitude and relief.  I have no idea if this is going to happen, because anything could happen between now and then, but what a great vision!  I am studying and preparing for it.  I am doing all the things I need to do in order for it to happen.  If it is meant to be - then it will be.  I have no attachment to the outcome because my future is in the Hands of God.
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