Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Friday, July 8, 2011

Day 189 - Lesson 188

The peace of God is shining in me now.

I'm having one of those days in which I must put all the lessons I've learned into practice.  I have to breathe in and breathe out this belief, this lesson.  I encountered a situation that triggers old fears and pushes buttons for me that I'd rather forget exist in me....but they do.

I am comforted by Source, Spirit, Love.  I am embracing uncertainty.  I am setting my intentions and detaching from the outcomes.  I believe the universe is abundant.  I believe everything is exactly as it is meant to be in this moment.  I understand that I have no power over any given situation - I have power only in how I react and respond to any given situation.

My heart still feels heavy.  My eyes are still filled with tears.  However, this has helped me to put this situation in better perspective:

The peace of God is shining in you now, and from your heart extends around the world.  It pauses to caress each living thing, and leaves a blessing with it that remains forever and forever....It brings renewal to all tired hearts, and lights all vision as it passes by.  All of its gifts are given everyone, and everyone unites in giving thanks to you who give, and you who have received.

I recognize and I am thankful for this path, for this union with God, because even when my heart feels heavy and my eyes leak tears - I know that: The peace of God is shining in me now and it's never, ever going away.
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