Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Monday, June 27, 2011

Day 178 - Lesson 177

God is but Love, and therefore so am I.
163 - There is no death.  The Son of God is free.
God is but Love, and therefore so am I.
164 - Now are we one with Him Who is our Source.
God is but Love, and therefore so am I.

I have been sitting here, struggling with what to say tonight.  My mind is zipping around in several different directions.  I actually wrote out a couple of paragraphs and deleted them.  I am all over the map.  It is incredibly windy this evening, steady 30 to 40 with gusts to 70.  That could be part of my problem.  I didn't hike or walk this evening (too windy), so that's likely part of it, too.

I recently wrote out a list of significant life events - my life events. One of the things I put on the list was this feeling I've had my whole life that I'm going to be involved in or part of something 'big' - I have no idea what it is.  It's almost like seeing a fuzzy picture that you can't quite get focused, and the more you try to focus it, the more blurry it becomes.  This feeling has been stronger the last few months.  Maybe I just need a vacation?

I am confident that whatever is to happen in my life - there is a divine purpose.
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