Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Day 159 - Lesson 158

Today I learn to give as I receive.

This lesson reminds me that:

What has been given you?  The knowledge that you are a mind, in Mind and purely mind, sinless forever, wholly unafraid, because you were created out of love.  Nor have you left your Source, remaining as you were created.  This was given you as knowledge which you cannot lose.  It was given as well to every living thing, for by that knowledge only does it live.

This lesson speaks to happening upon this knowledge, this awareness, in a way that we cannot predict.  This is so very true for me.  I wasn't looking for Source specifically - I was looking for better health, a greater sense of peace, I felt lost, but also on the 'right' track - and then I just suddenly felt the presence of Source.  This was something I was anticipating or expecting.  The ritual, the practice of meditation, of exposure to the great lessons of the great belief systems, allowing myself to enter a space of possibility, I think, all combined to show me Source; to feel connected to Source.

This lesson also talks about the fact that we all 'get it' eventually.
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