Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Day 177 - Lesson 176

God is but Love, and therefore so am I.
161 - Give me your blessing, holy Son of God.
God is but Love, and therefore so am I.
162 - I am as God created me.
God is but Love, and therefore so am I.

See the stars, look how they shine for you....this song, Yellow by Coldplay, is on right now.  I love that line.  That line, these lessons, getting outside and drinking in the sun, wind, sea, and chirping birds all remind me of our many blessings.

Earlier today I found my jaw setting as I looked at some comments on a social networking site.  My jaw setting means I was irritated.  I allowed myself to be irritated for a few minutes before recognizing that there was truly nothing to be irritated about.  We are each experiencing and responding to life based on our current level of awareness.  I don't say this as being 'superior.'  It is a simple statement of fact.  It's so much easier to listen with compassion (read with compassion) and look with love when I remember this.  Plus it's such a relief to lose any desire to get caught up in things that I don't need to be involved in.

I have also been actively reminding myself to let life unfold as it may - without forcing solutions.  For someone with little patience (me) this can be a challenging goal.  However, I am, in this moment, appreciating the goal.

I am as God created me.  Whether I can see the stars shining or not, I know they are shining for me....
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