Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Day 166 - Lesson 165

Let not my mind deny the Thought of God.

I think about God all day long.  Really, sometimes I wonder if I'm obsessed?  I am fully living life.  I am being aware of the present moment - much more often than ever before in my life.  I strive to make all decisions through love, and when I struggle with that, I strive to acknowledge that and move on.  So, I guess if I am obsessed it's a healthy obsession.

I really like this part of the lesson - it helped me keep some challenges in perspective today:

Practice today in hope.  For hope is indeed justified.  Your doubts are meaningless, for God is certain.

One perspective is that God can not be seen; while another is that it is impossible not to see God, for God is everywhere.  When I look at life as a miracle - I see God everywhere.  When I look at life as a grievance - I don't see God anywhere.

I choose love, miracles, and the mystery we call God....

It's a full moon - the strawberry moon - and I am off to gather with the goddesses.  Who will my archetype be this month?  I leave the decision to the universe.
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