Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Day 169 - Lesson 168

* I am a day late in posting this....the day got completely away from me yesterday....

Your grace is given me.  I claim it now.

This lesson starts out by saying, "God speaks to us."  I notice that when I maintain my consistent routines and rituals (mediation, study, healthy diet, etc.) feeling a close connection to Source is all encompassing.  When I divert from my rituals, I feel out-of-sorts - it's not that I don't feel Love, I do!  I just recognize how important these rituals are for my health and well-being.  I was out until very late last night.  It was fun.  I volunteered to photograph a local event.  There was a crazy competition that involved mixology (alcoholic beverages), there were costumes (I wore one, too), there was loud music and dancing.  I haven't danced in a long while.  I love to dance!  At the end of it all, I walked away thankful that I don't drink anymore.  And yet, I still woke up with an awful headache, a lack of sleep headache.

I enjoy my daily routine of feeling good, having immediate morning clarity, ready and happy to embrace the adventures that each new day brings my.  I feel the Love!
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