Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Day 160 - Lesson 159

I give the miracles I have received.

Parts of this lesson seem very natural and even easy - other parts seem more difficult and, in some cases, nearly impossible.  Maybe, however, those are the parts I make too complicated.

This section in particular has been on my mind the most today:

You understand that you are healed when you give healing.  You accept forgiveness as accomplished in yourself when you forgive.  You recognize your brother as yourself, and thus do you perceive that you are whole.  There is no miracle you cannot give, for all are given you.  Receive them now by opening the storehouse of your mind where they are laid, and giving them away.

I've read this section several times.  The 'brother' part is the sentence that I struggle with the most.  I still have a hard time with the concept that we are all one, that when I look at a stranger, or someone that I don't really like, I am looking at myself.  I'm not suggesting that the idea or concept isn't true - I'm sure that it is - it's just one that I have a particularly hard time wrapping my head around.  Surely I'm not the only one struggling with this....  It is exactly this type of topic that makes me yearn for a mentor or a guru to seek advice and counsel and instruction from.

There is, however, true comfort in the knowledge that I give the miracles I have received....
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