Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Day 170 - Lesson 169

By grace I live.  By grace I am released.

This lesson ends with a beautiful prayer:

By grave I live.  By grace I am released.  By grace I give.  By grace I will release.

Today was an incredibly beautiful day.  While this wind-swept, gray, remote and rocky place is always ruggedly beautiful - the scenery always spectacular, the roughness of it, the grayness can sometimes smother me with sadness.  Sometimes I feel claustrophobic here.  But on days like today my heart sings with joy to be here.  It was sunny and nearly 60 degrees.  I had a wonderful hike with three four-legged friends.  I sat back in the cushy tundra and stared into the sky and recalled being five again.  I captured that joy and kept it in my heart the rest of the day.

Even when life feels complicated and sad and dreary....if I will remember this prayer, I may then recapture the joy.
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