Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Day 156 - Lesson 155

I will step back and let Him lead the way.

At the start of this lesson it says:

There is a way of living in the world that is not here, although it seems to be.  You do not change appearance, though you smile more frequently.  Your forehead is serene; your eyes are quiet.  And the ones who walk the world as you do recognize their own.  Yet those who have not yet perceived the way will recognize you also, and believe that you are like them, as you were before.

I also read this today, by Alan Cohen, "We may live in a jungle, but whether it is heaven or hell depends on the thoughts we carry with us."

And I quoted a statement on Facebook today (for my quote of the day) by Deepak Chopra, from The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success, "In the ecstasy of my own silence, and by communing with nature, I will enjoy the life throb of ages, the field of pure potentiality and unbounded creativity."

So, these were the lessons, the words of wisdom and love in which I pondered, reflected, swallowed - the seeds I planted in my heart and in my mind as I went about my day.

I realized that I have been hanging onto a pattern of behavior that has not served me well.  It's one of those long term patterns that is such second-nature that I didn't notice it so much, until just yesterday, I recognized that it was something I needed to stop doing.  It has to do with external validation - a certain type or way of being 'validated.'  The light just 'went on' and I realized this just doesn't serve me particularly well....more than anything I now recognize that I need to: step back and let Him lead the way.  Brilliant!
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