Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Day 55 - Lesson 54

Lesson 54 was a review of lessons 16 through 20.  As I conducted my review, I was reminded of some emotional events that occurred that week.  It was a good lesson week.  I thought deeply about how our words and actions affect others and I did a lot of self-reflection.

Today is the Law of Intention and Desire.  During the goddess gathering this month, I selected Rhiannon - "You are a magical person who can manifest your clear intentions into reality."  On the drive home after the gathering, I talked with my friend about getting this particular card.  I explained that I had written out some intentions, but that they were very broad and I was nervous about making them more specific.  Every time I thought about getting specific, I just seemed to choke.  I was caught up in fear that I would intend the wrong thing or I wouldn't word it correctly and would end up with something less than I really wanted.  I finally realized this was very similar to thinking that the grass is always greener.... So, I thought long and hard about what my intentions are; I studied each line of the Law of Intention and Desire (in The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success), and I asked God for guidance. 

I now have five intentions that I feel good about.  I review them each morning and each evening.  I hold them in my awareness, in my heart, during meditation.  I honor them through present moment awareness.

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