Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Day 41 - Lesson 40

I am blessed as a son of God.  The lessons for this idea included repeating this all day long (I inserted daughter - I hope that wasn't a rule violation).  In addition, it was advised to repeat this and then add several attributes associated with this idea - I am happy, peaceful, loving, and contented.  I am calm, quiet, assured, and confident.

I sang this in my head throughout the day.  It made me think of that childhood song - This Little Light of Mine (I'm going to let it shine).  I couldn't remember the rest of the words to the song, but it tinkled along in my head and gave me a feel good happy mood.

So, you'd think I would have felt pretty good by the end of the day.  My whole day went well overall.  It was busy and I was tired after 11 hours.  I walked outside to come home and it was cold and breezy.  I thought about the things I needed to do at home.  One of them was to take the beagle for a walk.  I really did not want to.  I got all bundled up - which takes quite a bit of time, then it's difficult to move around with ease, then I got frustrated with my earphones under my face mask head covering thing, and then I just got growly (a deep throat sound). 

I felt better after playing davidji in my head for awhile. I couldn't help but feel better the more I walked.  Even though it was cold and snarly outside, davidji took me to the sweet spot of the universe.  I was able to return home a much nicer person. 

I am indeed blessed!
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