Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Monday, February 7, 2011

Day 38 - Lesson 37

Yes, I moved on instead of doing Lesson 36 over again.  I gave it a lot of thought.  I walked and thought.  I meditated and thought.  I prayed and thought.  I decided that the best course of action was to take what I had learned and move on.  So I did. 

My holiness blesses the world.  "Your purpose is to see the world through your own holiness."  "It lets you teach the world that it is one with you, not by preaching to it, not by telling it anything, but merely by your quiet recognition that in your holiness are all things blessed along with you."

I had mixed feelings about this lesson.  Part of me felt a little tickled practicing this - the lesson included saying in your head with each person you met throughout the day, "My holiness blesses you, ______."  I enjoyed doing that, but it felt strange because I struggle with seeing myself as holy (really truly holy).  I also wrestle a bit with the ego stuff around how 'being holy' can be misinterpreted as being 'better than.'  These ingrained auto emotions can be tough to deal with (I guess yesterday's response is a good recent reminder of that).  It does come right down to ego and how it can so effectively edge God out.

This idea and lesson did fit in nicely with it being Monday and also the Law of Giving and Receiving (based on Deepak Chopra's Seven Spiritual Laws of Success).  According to this law, we are to give everyone we meet a gift - whether it be a prayer, a flower, assistance, time - anything.

This combination of lessons helped me get through a difficult and challenging day with kindness in my heart and a 'gift' for each person I met.  If this means my holiness blessed the world today I am totally good with that.
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