Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Monday, February 14, 2011

Day 45 - Lesson 44

God is the light in which I see.  I did the practice periods and repeated this to myself, over and over again, throughout the day.  I was in a big hurry after work this evening.  My grandsons were coming over for Valentine's Day while their parents went out to eat.  I had a very short time to get the beagle out for a walk.  It was the first day in four that the weather was conducive to walking.  In my hurry, my mind racing, this idea somehow pushed through the thousands of thoughts clogging my head.  At that moment, I slowed down and looked all around me - the calm, clear bay, the snow-draped mountains, the crystal blue sky with fluffy white clouds, the ravens and eagles, the scent of ice and ocean, the crispness that turns bone-chilling, numbing, unless you keep walking.  It was in these few moments that I saw and felt this idea.  For the remainder of my walk my mind was still, my heart was calm, and all was right in the world.
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