Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Day 48 - Lesson 47

God is the strength in which I trust.  This is something I have been working on for some time - so, I guess it was bound to come along in these lessons.  For a long time, I thought I had to trust in my own strength.  This only led to disappointment.  I simply could not be strong all the time or even for a very long period of time.  As I begin to let go of ego and to 'just be,' I find it much easier to sense the presence of God's, of Spirit's, of Source's strength. 

Tonight I had another fine opportunity to attend a Goddess Gathering.  Last month the main message from the Goddess I selected was 'quiet meditation.'  It was a great daily reminder and was very helpful in encouraging me to continue to meditate regularly.

Tonight the message I received was powerful and sort of scary - "You are a magical person who can manifest your clear intentions into reality."  I think it was Marianne Williamson who said that we aren't really afraid of what we can't do; what we're really afraid of is what we can do (I'm sure she said it much more beautifully ).  I know that this path I am on is right for me; it is exactly what I should be doing right now.  The intentions part has been challenging.  Not that I haven't set intentions - I certainly have.  They are fairly broad because every time I think about being more specific I get a little scared that I'm not asking for the right thing....my intention may not be right.  I think the message tonight is to trust in my intentions, that I do know what they are, and I need to stop being afraid of them.

I feel so very blessed to have shared an evening with six women all looking for inspiration, laughter, support, and camaraderie.  The divine was most assuredly present, the strength of that 'divineness' was palpable.  The stories of pain, of heartache, of injustice are all catalysts to comfort, and love, and justice.

While I couldn't see the near full moon tonight, I was comforted in knowing it was there....faith.

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