Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Day 44 - Lesson 43

God is my Source.  I cannot see apart from Him.  I wasn't all that great at practicing this lesson today.  I'm not sure why.  I woke up feeling refreshed.  I enjoyed a leisurely morning of reading and studying.  It was blissfully quiet.  As I was studying last night, the wind hammered the siding like thunderclaps and I prayed I would sleep.  And I did.  I did a lot of thinking today, a lot of reflecting.  Though I felt distracted.  I've had difficulty concentrating today. 

Deepak Chopra recommends finding your goddess / god archetype.  I did that today.  I found this quiz designed by someone with a PhD in all things ancient - maybe not all things, but those things that pertain to gods and goddesses.  I was skeptical of the whole thing.  I figured it would be broad enough that it could 'be me' or just about anyone given the right circumstances.  Well, so, my goddess archetype is Isis.  As I read the profile, I chuckled several times because it does fit me - rather perfectly.  While much of it is complimentary, the quirky, messed up, weak parts of me are patterns that have existed in my life for eternity.  And, yes, of course, when I recognize them, when I see they are at play, I have every opportunity to turn those weaknesses into strengths - or at least minimize their negative impact in my life.  This was a fun exercise and caused me to appreciate myself in a way I have been ignoring.

What does this have to do with the lesson?  Everything.  Pure potential was assisting me in seeing my archetype and thereby looking at myself with the eyes and heart of love.

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