Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Day 47 - Lesson 46

God is the Love in which I forgive.  This lesson goes on to say, "Fear condemns and love forgives.  Forgiveness thus undoes what fear has produced, returning the mind to the awareness of God."  The lesson includes a session in which you think about the people in your life that you haven't forgiven or that you don't like, hold them in your mind, and say, "God is the Love in which I forgive you, [name]."  Of course, the very last person we include in this list is ourselves.  I really understand that forgiveness is more about healing me than it is healing 'you.'  When I hold on to grudges, to anger, to fear, to resentment, it is like poison in my soul and there just really isn't any reason for it.  Frankly, as I thought about the few people I had any resentments toward I couldn't, in every case, recall exactly why I didn't like them any longer or held such feelings.  There were a couple that I clearly remembered and struggled with forgiving, but as I reflected upon this throughout the day, letting go of those negative feelings made sense and made me feel better.  I made a statement awhile back that resolution isn't possible where love isn't present and I truly believe that.  When we push back, resent, try to 'one up' or any of those things, no matter how justified we think we are, it just continues and often escalates the cycle of fear. 

So, let love be your guide and allow forgiveness in your heart.

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