Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Day 237 - Lesson 236

I rule my mind, which I alone must rule.

This lesson addresses releasing my mind to God, to Holy Spirit, to employ as he sees fit.

I ask every morning and throughout the day to be a vessel of spirit.  Today was a busy, intense day.  When I felt constricted with stress and anxiety, I acknowledged it and I observed it - and then I made choices that felt nurturing and I then felt expansion.

I live in a place where the weather dictates whether or not the plane will fly.  I am scheduled to fly out tomorrow for a long awaited trip.  I will be testing for my Perfect Health certification in southern California, then on to visit family in another state, and then on to my corporate office in yet another state.  This trip means a lot to me.  I checked the weather report for tomorrow and learned that it's marginal for leaving tomorrow.  The winds are supposed to be up around 55 mph.  Depending on the direction, this could mean I won't be going.  I began to scramble to see if I could get out on a flight today or this evening.  As I was checking into this option, I felt this major constriction inside my body and I could feel a lot of anxiety.  My mind was whirling with activity about all the things I would need to do and how I was going to make that happen.  And then I stopped.  I stopped all the whirlwind activity and chose to leave my plans exactly as they were.  I stopped worrying about whether or not I will leave as scheduled tomorrow.  All that stress and all that anxiety dissipated - the constrictions were gone.

While I will be sorely disappointed if I don't get to go tomorrow, I trust that things will work out exactly as they are intended.  Everything will happen just as it is meant to, and I may never know all the reasons for however things finally do turn out, but I know Spirit is looking out for me.  After all, I have given my mind over to God, to Pure Potentiality, and I trust in the decisions made from the love of that space. 

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