Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Day 235 - Lesson 234

Father, today I am Your Son again.

There is one specific line in this lesson, much more than the title of it, that struck home for me: Today we will anticipate the time when dreams of sin and guilt are gone, and we have reached the holy peace we never left.

I ran across a Rumi quote last night that stayed with me all day today - "Sell your cleverness and buy bewilderment."

When I go back to all that is simple and pure, when I seek meaning out of my natural curiosity, when I believe in the best of all things, and when I don't make assumptions, that holy peace is right there.  I am able to cast aside those feelings of sin and guilt.  They do nothing for me.  It's when I appreciate the vast space of the sky, the immensity of the ocean, when I listen to crickets, and smell lilacs....that is when I am in touch with my holy peace.

I so appreciate the fact that at the end of most of my busy days, it is a short walk into nature.  The waves crashing onto shore, the fire weed blooming its last flowers, the salmon berries drying up, the blueberries coming on, the clouds rolling across the sky as if in a hurry to reach their next destination all remind me how amazing life is - how precious and beautiful.
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