Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Day 215 - Lesson 214

I am not a body.  I am free.
For I am still as God created me.

(194) I place the future in the Hands of God.

The past is gone; the future is not yet.  Now am I freed from both.  For what God gives can only be for good.  And I accept but what He gives as what belongs to me.

I am not a body.  I am free.
For I am still as God created me.

I had an experience today that completely reinforced this lesson for me.  There is a situation occurring far away from me, geographically, that pains my heart to the point of physical illness.  I woke up with worry and feeling sick to my stomach over this situation.  However, I immediately turned to this lesson and let it sink in.  I draped my prayer scarf around my shoulders and sank into meditation.  I released the hold of the past and of the future.

I went about my day, still some worried, but recognizing that the best, the most nourishing choice for me and for everyone involved was to place the future in the hands of God, in the space of love, in the winds of the universe.  My worry, my agitation, my obsession wouldn't change the situation, wouldn't provide anything positive, and wouldn't be nurturing.  Mostly it would just continue to make me feel ill and sad.

I held this lesson like a shield and each time a wave of worry or anger would enter my awareness, I would call upon this wisdom and let it go. 
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