Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Day 232 - Lesson 231

Father, I will but to remember You.

This lesson is a reminder in God being love and that we have a memory of God (Spirit, Source, Pure Potentiality).  I still get a little tripped up occasionally with the traditional language in this course.  It's because that language congers up images that aren't authentic for me and yet they are deeply embedded.  I try to tap into Love each day.  I wake up and ask to be a vessel of spirit (of love) throughout the day.  Each night I reflect upon my day and relive it in images (davidji calls this recapitulation).  It's amazing how this works to inspire me to live my life more fully in love.

I am starting to feel a bit overwhelmed with my 'to do' list that needs to be complete before I leave on Friday.  However, I am trying to place my trust in love and have faith that everything will work out exactly as it is intended.  I am not going to force solutions.  I am simply going to be thankful.
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