Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Day 216 - Lesson 215

I am not a body.  I am free.
For I am still as God created me.

(195) Love is the way I walk in gratitude.

The Holy Spirit is my only Guide.  He walks with me in love.  And I give thanks to Him for showing me the way to go.

I am not a body.  I am free.
For I am still as God created me.

I make an effort every day to remind myself of all the things I'm thankful for.  I reflect upon all the happenings of my day and watch it as if it were a movie.  When I wake up, I ask to be used as a vessel of spirit.  At the end of the day, I check in to see how that happened and whether or not I was present and aware. 

My days are unbelievably full.  My life has always been busy, but I felt a sense of dissatisfaction and of searching for something that seemed out of my grasp - I didn't really know what I was searching for.  Now my days are full with meaning, with recognizing that happiness, love, and gratitude are found within.  Whatever may be happening externally does not define my sense of wholeness.

Sitting in silence, being committed to love, being more aware and more present are the ingredients to truth.
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