Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Day 233 - Lesson 232

Be in my mind, my Father, through the day.

This lesson starts by saying:

Be in my mind, my Father, when I wake, and shine on me throughout the day today.  Let every minute be a time in which I dwell with You.

It goes on to say - This is as every day should be.  Today, practice the end of fear.

I really blew this lesson today.  My day started out right; I awoke early and had a good long meditation.  I sent out some inspiring messages.  I rolled up my sleeves and started working on the projects to prepare for my upcoming trip.  As the day wore on, I began to feel discouraged of ever getting everything done, I started to feel cranky, and uncomfortable physically.  I argued with myself over how to shake these feelings.  Now I wish I would have taken a few minutes out to reflect upon this lesson and to reflect upon all that I have to be thankful for.  Maybe if I would have walked a little earlier, that would have very likely helped as well. 

I can't fake it....I feel down and discouraged.  I'd like to shake these blues right here, right now.  I know all the right things to do, to say, to practice.  I am going to go take a bath in lavender salts and go to bed.  I will reflect upon this lesson and turn it all over to the mystery we call God.
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