Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Friday, August 19, 2011

Day 231 - Lesson 230

Now will I seek and find the peace of God.

I embraced this mantra today and held it close to my heart.  I find myself observing life from a detached space more often these days.  This has encouraged greater peace in my life.  It doesn't mean I don't live life to its fullest, in fact I am living life much more exuberantly and soberly, not as in sadly, but consciously - awake. 

I watched a video last night, a talk that was given by Brene Brown.  She is a researcher; she has a PhD.  She did a multi-year study on human connection.  Her 20 minute talk was brilliant, beautiful, powerful, and thought-provoking.  I quoted her in my blog last night.  She talks about the importance of vulnerability - the risk taking in expressing our love.  She also talked about the fact that we are the most in debt, addicted, and obese society ever in U.S. history.  We numb ourselves from our pain, our sadness, our fears - which means we also numb ourselves from feeling our joy, our love, our hope.  We mask our vulnerabilities and therefore cannot truly feel the array of emotions we are intended to experience. 

I was once numb.....I am now finding the peace of God instead.
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