Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Day 293 - Lesson 292

A happy outcome to all things is sure.

This lesson focuses on how we perceive problems and make our lives complicated - and yet our happiness is secure - we need only allow it.

I attended a poetry workshop tonight.  I haven't written anything in a long while, I have all this philosophy roaming around inside my head, my life is amazing and wonderful and busier than it's ever been....I feel some lost or maybe it's just that I am truly embracing uncertainty?  Anyway, at the workshop we were assigned a powerful exercise.  We were asked to write down all the many names we've been called throughout our lives and then develop that further - where the names originated, what they mean to us - that sort of thing.  I really enjoyed this exercise.  I liked the process and it took me to a different place.  It took me out of my studies and opened up new thoughts and new awareness.

The bonus to all this is I came across a poem (thanks to attending the workshop) that sums up (for me) so much of the philosophy I've been studying -

Little Cosmic Dust Poem (1983) John Haines

Out of the debris of dying stars, this rain of particles that waters the waste with brightness... The sea-wave of atoms hurrying home, collapse of the giant, unstable guest who cannot stay... The sun's heart reddens and expands, his mighty aspiration is lasting, as the shell of his substance one day will be white with frost.  In the radiant field of Orion great hordes of stars are forming, just as we see every night, fiery and faithful to the end.  Out of the cold and fleeing dust that is never and always, the silence and waste to come... This arm, this hand, my voice, your face, this love.

So, speaking of powerful...and a happy outcome to all things is sure.
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