Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Friday, October 7, 2011

Day 280 - Lesson 279

Creation's freedom promises my own.

And it also says, "I will accept Your promises today, and give my faith to them."

I have definitely been engaged in the tug and pull of 'this world, or that world' this last week.  This week has offered a prime opportunity to put all of these lessons and all of these studies into practice.  What I learned is: it's a whole lot easier to offer all of this sage advice and warm love to anyone else experiencing challenges and difficulties; when it's me, well....that's just a whole different story.  I switch on auto-pilot and then wrestle for the controls, completely forgetting that when I try to force solutions I veer off course and lose sight of the path.

I didn't breathe enough this week.  I didn't honor nature in all of its abundance (actually being in it).  I didn't trust that the mystery we call God would set in motion a universe that would support me.  I didn't trust that what was happening was exactly as it was meant to be. 

I have acknowledged all that and set it free from being a burden on my heart.  I have observed the resulting emotions of this struggle.  I have embraced uncertainty (almost, I'm really trying to).  I am appreciating this very moment.  I am making progress on this path....and getting side-tracked every now and then are important parts of the journey. 
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