Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Day 279 - Lesson 278

If I am bound, my Father is not free.

A portion of the prayer in this lesson says this, "Father, I ask for nothing but the truth.  I have had many foolish thoughts about myself and my creation, and have brought a dream of fear into my mind. Today, I would not dream.  I choose the way to You instead of madness and instead of fear."

This was a comforting lesson to me.  I have been beating myself up pretty hard this week - and wading in a pool of fear.  Even though logically I recognize how self-defeating that is and how I wouldn't treat anyone else that way....making the changes aren't always particularly easy. 

These lessons, combined with all of the other studies I've been involved in, have been eye and heart opening in the most beautiful and fulfilling ways.  I am happy to be working towards loosening and untying the knots and layers of binding that have constricted my life.  Each snip, each tug, each unraveling exposes greater depths of abundance in hope, in wonder, and in love.
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