Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Day 331 - Lesson 330

I will not hurt myself again today.

This lesson starts by saying:

Let us this day accept forgiveness as our only function.  Why should we attack our minds, and given them images of pain?

My day has seemed to revolve around reminders of: my life's purpose.  Maybe I'm focused too much on this question.  I am so loving being an instructor of Primordial Sound Meditation and Perfect Health / Ayurveda.  I love facilitating the Sunday Gatherings (we recognize the Law of Pure Potentiality and experience an active meditation).  I love preparing and recording my radio spots that run each week.  I want these opportunities to continue to evolve and grow and expand into the way I make a living.

My journey has led me to this new level of awareness and now I just want to embrace it with my whole being.  It's challenging to focus on my bread and butter job - not that I don't appreciate it, I do!  However, I feel so ready to move on and yet I don't know what that means?

I will give it up to the universe, to Source, to Love....the answers will come, the outcomes will spontaneously emerge without my interference.  I leave it to Source - the best possible caretaker of my evolution.
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